I'm Bleeding, I'm Bleeding, I'm Bleeding
A collection of journal entries from the inner winter / bleed phase of my cycle.
14th September 2021
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding.
A sweet release.
My heaviness, fogginess and sleepiness are explained.
I understand why I have been retreating and going inwards recently.
I understand why I have felt the need to wrap things up and get them in order.
It all makes sense.
Isn't it funny how us humans have this intense need to make sense of everything?
We can't just let things be.
We must understand, unpick, unravel and neatly put it back together.
It MUST make sense.
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding.
I want to scream it from the rooftops.
Let everyone know about the magic happening inside my body.
But I don't.
I stay quiet. I wrap myself in a blanket, listen to my recharge | winter playlist, write, pull tarot cards, read, retreat. I delete the Instagram app from my phone. I try to minimise technology.
I feel grateful that I can do this for myself.
I wish everyone who bleeds had this choice, if they wish.
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding.
My inner enchantress asks me why I don't share more about my bleed and my cycle.
Because of what people will think, I reply hesitantly.
What if they're disgusted or unfollow or look at me funny
'So what? Who Cares?' she asks.
I know she is right.
I promise myself I will start sharing more soon.
There is magic in this work, in me.
There is medicine in this work, in me.
It is ready to be released.
To be birthed.
To be shouted about; from the freaking rooftops.
Wednesday 15th December 2021
I am bleeding - yay! I am excited to drop into this bleed.
To write.
To read.
To sleep.
To colour.
To meditate.
To practice Yoga Nidra.
Something about checking in at the end of each day has been so powerful for help me connect deeper to myself and my cycle.
I've felt very in tune this cycle.
A great last cycle of 2021.
Monday 14th February 2022
I feel a little dazed.
I'm not sure how but my bones hurt.
Tuesday 15th March 2022
I feel exhausted. I have lower back pain which is new for me - the pain has shifted from my stomach to my back and my left side in particular.
I am determined to shift my mindset and to stop getting caught in a rut. I can't keep doing the same thing and expecting and different result.
I feel proud of myself for letting go more this cycle. I feel like I have released and turned over a new leaf.
Life feels softer.
I am letting go and shedding all that no longer serves me.
I am exactly who I am meant to be.
Life is a blessing.
I am blessed
Photo taken by Nadia Meli taken at a Cycle Coach School Gathering
Sunday 8th May 2022
I feel tender.
Everything movement is heightened.
I feel my heart pulsing.
I feel my bones.
I feel my muscles tensing and relaxing.
I feel it all.
I close my eyes and I embrace this moment.
Each cycle I am born again.
I feel new.
I feel a fresh sense of perspective.
I am always amazed at the insights I receive.
I am always amazed at the tenderness I feel.
I am always amazed at the slowness crave.
I am always amazed at the love and reverence I feel for my body.
With love and gratitude,
Jyoti x
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